I created this blog as a place I could get some catharsis. I then built a list of virtues to remind myself of the person I wanted to be everyday. From 2017 to 2018 my list of 9 virtues were as follows;
1.Honesty: Upright; to always tell the truth and stay true to myself. Reversed; being able to accept the whole truth and not pick out the pieces you want to see.
2.Courage: Upright; Living life fearlessly, taking action without fear of the yet to come. Reversed; not allowing fear to control your actions, or lack thereof.
3.Compassion: Upright; being kind to others as well as your self. Reversed; understanding when something that may not feel good is still necessary.
4. Prudence; Upright; making decisions wisely using foresight and personal discretion. Reverse; Understanding how all actions have reactions which you choose to feed is the one that will manifest.
5. Dignity; Upright; Self-worth, valuing your self. Reversed; Holding your value of your self above anyone else’s.
6. Tenacity; Upright; Strength of mind, Sheer determination. Reversed; Remaining grounded and in control of ones thoughts and reactions.
7. Service; Upright; Understanding that we must all do our part. Reversed; Understanding that our part is specific to us and sometimes we must do what isn’t easy for just anyone, it’s our job.
8. Wholesomeness; Upright; General health and cleanliness. Nurturing all aspects of the body, mind, and spirit. Reversed; Being able to listen to the body’s needs and exercising care for them.
9. Humour; Upright; Always remain kind and open. Reversed; Don’t forget to laugh at yourself.
I will still take this list where I go in life. I feel like I really honoured them and stayed on the path even if I was swerving at times.
Now, times have changed, I’ve built a foundation for myself to proudly stand on. I believe in the person that I am and am happy with how I treat others, how I value myself, and how others have come to value me.
So what does this next chapter entail?
Now is the time to focus on the Now. I’ve made my way through, and now Im here. Now Im sitting on my chair, looking out my window, as I write about how Im feeling these days. Mindfulness. Appreciation. Gratitude. Happiness. Bliss.
Now I am contemplating the future, whilst trying to remain in the present. Now I am trying to watch myself as I think and understand the functions of my mind. Now I am trying to make a plan to get myself to a place where I have made my dreams happen. So how do I do that with the power of the mind?
Well, I think I’ll start with a list of virtues that will keep me going with the right mindset so that I can tackle every obstacle. Obstacles of success being, lack of preparation, over-confidence/lack of confidence, doubt/fear, vices/bad habits, lack of organization, lack of execution, etc. So I’ll use my mind to counter all these obstacles.
What are our minds purpose if not to be used as a tool in creating the life we imagine?
The biggest obstacle being Fear/Doubt that leads to failure to begin. So we have Courage, some say bravery is the ability to undertake great difficulty or pain without feeling fear and courage is the ability to to take it on despite the undeniable presence of fear. I think it would be wise to admit that fear may always be present, especially when I finally decide to leap out of the flying plane, but Im going to do it this year anyways.
So still, Courage, for the power to do it anyways.
I believe that to stay humble is to know what your limits are. I want to own a house one day, but I can’t expect to be able to buy a million dollar home in the next two years, because it really just isn’t very plausible. So focusing on what I CAN do, I can save up enough for a downpayment for an affordable home. Knowing what I can and cant do within reason is important.
So Humbleness, for the power of reason.
It’s very easy for my mind to lose focus, it likes to wander around and bounce from one train of thought to another. I’d say this is happens most often when I slip out of my consciousness, when I stop being mindful and instead let myself become mindless. You would think that if you are getting lost in thought that that would make you more mindful, but it’s just the opposite. I find that this happens when I am watching television, or browsing social media on my phone, or eating edibles, or drinking fluids that cause my body to produce Acetaldehyde that then my body has to focus its energy to turning that into acetic acid and therefore takes away from its ability to focus on other things like making my gut happy, or waking up early and feeling good to go. Thats valuable time being used on things that mean nothing.
So Mindfulness, for the power of self awareness.
It takes time to get long lasting results. It will take time to save money. It will take time to find the right place, to buy the right tools and materials. It will take time to develop the dream I envision. So this will take both Patience and Diligence.
So Patience, for the power to wait.
So Diligence, for the power to keep going.
Throughout my life I have been fortunate to have the loving support of my family and friends, mostly my mother. She has always provided a safety net for me to fall into if the time ever arose. The time has come for me to have my own safety net that I develop for myself and for the family I hope to one day bring into this world. I want my partner to be able to rely on me if ever need be, and I want to feel good knowing that I am a pillar of support for myself and my friends and family.
So, Self Reliance. for the power I provide myself.
After adopting a relentless hound and quickly learning the challenges of training. I can see that Jeremiah isn’t the only one that needs a firm hand. It takes constant training and it is tiring and seemingly unending, but he knows what paw means now, so I think we have a chance. Discipline means to teach, I have to teach him how to behave and I have to teach myself how to behave in order to reach my goals.
So, Discipline, for the power to learn.
Taking on the challenge of training two hounds whilst juggling a job where I have to balance heavy plates at the ends of my fingertips has revealed to me how physically weak I actually am. So this year I want to focus on my physicality.
So Strength, for the power to rely on my body.
And at the end of the day I have nothing but myself and I can only BELIEVE in myself and all that I do and trust that I am enough. Trust that no matter what the outcome I will make it work. Trust in myself, in my loved ones, and in the natural order of the world that all will be as it should.
So Faith, for the power to trust.
Here’s the new list;
- Self Reliance
There definitely isn’t one that is more important than the other so the order doesn’t matter. This is a list for me to now use to wake up and remind myself everyday of how Im going to make my dreams a reality. This year is full of potential purposeful action waiting to be put into motion, and so we begin.
Now Im going to write these up on my white board and get this day started.